Det här suger

Vad alla bråkar hemma. 

Man mår inte bättre någonstans. 

Det här suger. 

Jag tog bort Fb och instagram appen bara för att jag inte orkar just nu. 

Ska ha studiebesök hos folktandvården sen. 

You cannot love but you still get your heart broken; how is that possible

This feeling sucks. Okay, so I started talking with this wonderful Finnish guy but then I realised I couldn't really continue my thing with him because of my priorities. If I continue, my priorities will probably be ruined. Music is my biggest priority right now and I will not let anyone or anything ruin me while I am on my way. It sucks that I had to choose between the two. It sucks that I was left without a choice. It sucks that I am hurting right now. We were not even together and it has not even gone a week and I already gave up but that is because I had do. I thought it would be better to make an end of it now than later when his feelings have grown much stronger. I really do like him, and I think he is a wonderful guy. I think he deserves someone better than me; someone who has time for him. He is a musician too, I just don't know how driven and passionate he is about music. I would really love to stay in touch with him because he is a nice guy, not to mention he loves our music. This sucks. Big time.

I'm just gonna sit here and cry.

Crying over his videos

Can you believe i am crying over James Bay's videos on youtube. The videos where he talks about how he started as an artist and all. Gosh. That passion. That talent. I feel so inspired now. He is such a good example for the young aspiring musicians today. Bless you, beautiful soul! 

Now I'm gonna write more songs. See ya! 

And oh you dude from Finland, I like you and I miss you. 

Crushes.

So yesterday I found out my Crush has been crushing on me all along. why am i so bad at noticing such things?! GAAAH.  Thing is, he lives in Finland but he is actually willing to move places because e thinks this is a rare opportunity. Also, he is actually a fan of our music. I just think he is a lovely and smart guy. Han är så fin! 

Räkna fåglar

Hej nu är jag hemma från repet igår. Gick faktiskt bättre nu!~ tagga till inspelningen av singeln nästa nästa vecka ! :D Längtar lite. Får ju redan lite gig-inbjudan men vi kan inte tacka ja än eftersom vi måste känna oss trygga med låtarna först. 

Åkte buss hem idag, såg lite fåglar på himlen; vet inte varför men jag räknade dom. Hahaha. 54 st var det. 

Some musicians

There's one thing I've noticed that some musicians do. They go party like everyday, get drunk, smoke and what not as if they must. Nobody is telling you to do it just because you're a creative, and in this case: a musician. No one is expecting you to "party like a rockstar." You don't have to do these things to get a certain image. Not that I am against these things, I mean I love partying and socializing and drinking from time to time but it is because I want to do it, not because I feel like I have to. I am not obliged to these things, and if there's anything I am obliged to do it is to do what I love and make music, nothing more. I am just saying this because it sadddens me when I see fellow musicians "trying hard" to fit in because they think they have to. The thing is, you've already fit in from the start. And to be honest? I believe people will respect you and your music more if you actually show them how much music means to you than anything else. More than all the partying and drinking, etc. Sometimes I honestly feel that there's not much music being produced because most of our time our wasted on partying and getting drunk instead. Set priorities would be good, perhaps? Well, it's just me. 

I tend to make people listen when I talk/sing and I don't know why

Yep, the title says it all. I've just noticed this many times whenever I am about to say something or whenever I am about to sing and play music. I'm grateful because it really helps a lot.

Also, there's this guy from Finland who likes our music and he was wondering if we got any calls from labels yet. Apparently he had the idea that we've already played live. Haha. We've never played live yet. I can't wait though. 

He wrote:  I think there'll be some minor labels asking around once you get your feet wet in the business of live performing. Well made music gets reckognized relatively quickly.

Well that gives me a little hope and encouragement at least! :)