Okay, so I finally had the courage to buy a pack of cigarettes for myself. Can you believe it? FOR MYSELF! I had thought of buying them once or twice before but always changed my mind and ended up buying food instead. But today I just felt like it's time. I wanted to try buying a pack of cigarettes on my own, for myself. The first time I ever bought a pack of cigarettes was like weeks ago and it wasn't for me; it was for my friend's bandmate. But today's different. I bought this pack of cigarettes for me. I wasn't even sure what to say to the cashier. Haha. I bought my first ever lighter ever too. LOL. Then I went to Emma and practiced vocals and harmonies and everything. When I arrived home, I left my stuff in my room and went to the forest nearby. I made it. My first ever cigarette. I kind of failed though. I didn't know why the cigarette stopped smoking all the time. Hahah! I had to try many times before I could finally smoke in peace. I finished one and daaang I smell like shit now, haha. I showered afterwards, don't worry. One thing I realised is that it smells so bad and I just don't get why people smoke at all. I'm thinking of selling this pack of cigarettes and buy food instead. Or just throw them away.
By the way, I was in Södermalm today and sat on a bench. I just felt like doing it. I was looking around, observing people and I got so many ideas just by sitting there. It was wonderful. I managed to write one song, and a diary entry which was not supposed to be written on that notebook since it's for my lyrics. People kept on staring at me, looking all puzzled as if they've never seen a person sitting there and writing on a notebook before. Haha.
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