You cannot love but you still get your heart broken; how is that possible

This feeling sucks. Okay, so I started talking with this wonderful Finnish guy but then I realised I couldn't really continue my thing with him because of my priorities. If I continue, my priorities will probably be ruined. Music is my biggest priority right now and I will not let anyone or anything ruin me while I am on my way. It sucks that I had to choose between the two. It sucks that I was left without a choice. It sucks that I am hurting right now. We were not even together and it has not even gone a week and I already gave up but that is because I had do. I thought it would be better to make an end of it now than later when his feelings have grown much stronger. I really do like him, and I think he is a wonderful guy. I think he deserves someone better than me; someone who has time for him. He is a musician too, I just don't know how driven and passionate he is about music. I would really love to stay in touch with him because he is a nice guy, not to mention he loves our music. This sucks. Big time.

I'm just gonna sit here and cry.

Crying over his videos

Can you believe i am crying over James Bay's videos on youtube. The videos where he talks about how he started as an artist and all. Gosh. That passion. That talent. I feel so inspired now. He is such a good example for the young aspiring musicians today. Bless you, beautiful soul! 

Now I'm gonna write more songs. See ya! 

And oh you dude from Finland, I like you and I miss you. 

Crushes.

So yesterday I found out my Crush has been crushing on me all along. why am i so bad at noticing such things?! GAAAH.  Thing is, he lives in Finland but he is actually willing to move places because e thinks this is a rare opportunity. Also, he is actually a fan of our music. I just think he is a lovely and smart guy. Han är så fin! 

Räkna fåglar

Hej nu är jag hemma från repet igår. Gick faktiskt bättre nu!~ tagga till inspelningen av singeln nästa nästa vecka ! :D Längtar lite. Får ju redan lite gig-inbjudan men vi kan inte tacka ja än eftersom vi måste känna oss trygga med låtarna först. 

Åkte buss hem idag, såg lite fåglar på himlen; vet inte varför men jag räknade dom. Hahaha. 54 st var det. 

Some musicians

There's one thing I've noticed that some musicians do. They go party like everyday, get drunk, smoke and what not as if they must. Nobody is telling you to do it just because you're a creative, and in this case: a musician. No one is expecting you to "party like a rockstar." You don't have to do these things to get a certain image. Not that I am against these things, I mean I love partying and socializing and drinking from time to time but it is because I want to do it, not because I feel like I have to. I am not obliged to these things, and if there's anything I am obliged to do it is to do what I love and make music, nothing more. I am just saying this because it sadddens me when I see fellow musicians "trying hard" to fit in because they think they have to. The thing is, you've already fit in from the start. And to be honest? I believe people will respect you and your music more if you actually show them how much music means to you than anything else. More than all the partying and drinking, etc. Sometimes I honestly feel that there's not much music being produced because most of our time our wasted on partying and getting drunk instead. Set priorities would be good, perhaps? Well, it's just me. 

I tend to make people listen when I talk/sing and I don't know why

Yep, the title says it all. I've just noticed this many times whenever I am about to say something or whenever I am about to sing and play music. I'm grateful because it really helps a lot.

Also, there's this guy from Finland who likes our music and he was wondering if we got any calls from labels yet. Apparently he had the idea that we've already played live. Haha. We've never played live yet. I can't wait though. 

He wrote:  I think there'll be some minor labels asking around once you get your feet wet in the business of live performing. Well made music gets reckognized relatively quickly.

Well that gives me a little hope and encouragement at least! :)

Compliment or what

When some random guy listens your music and asks if you wrote the lyrics (and my answer to this is YES) then he goes: "you are succesful girl, better than Justin Beiber :D " and I go all confused and ask myself if this is a compliment or what. I don't know if I should laugh or cry, hahaha.

piano sonata no. 11

i've been listening to classical music today and managed to compose a beautiful song inspired by Mozart's Piano Sonata No.11 :D I'm quite satisfied by it so far~ !

quote of the day.

Aries Marquis

3 months ago

 

I'll say, as a vocalist, song-writer, and music artist, that his performance was brilliant. You have to understand that when it comes to live performances, 1)Passionate singers will never have 100% perfect vocal performances, and 2) Everyone's voice is different, live. Folks should not judge based on PERFECTION, but the soul/passion of the deliverance of the song. THAT is what I critique. Although our voices (Hozier and mine) are totally different, the way he delivered this song, regardless of the breaks (I've done the same, live, on several occasions) would have allowed me to give a STANDING ovation if I were there! Damn good job on this performance! 

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My insecurities about the EP.

So I decided to show a musician friend what he thinks about the songs on the EP. I thought I needed new eyes and ears to listen to them and get some feedback because I've been feeling a little insecure and was almost considering not releasing it.

At first he was like: I reallyyyy like it it's veryyyy soothing is that you singing?

I wasn't so convinced and it sounded like he thought it wasn't that good, haha. I got nervous.

Then he was like: It sounds amazingggg. So far it sounds like a soundtrack to a film! I am stuck inside a film right now, I am walking in a field at night as a bonfire is going on in the distance.

I thought it was nice. It's one of my goals: to actually make the listener feel like he's in a film. Good imagery is good.

Then he was like: Played and sang very well! Release it! This is seriously a work of art. I'm honestly stunned. I knew that you were good, but this is beyond good. I wish I had even half the talent you have.

I was in awe. I couldn't wrap those words around my head so I was like: You must be kidding! You're just saying this because we're friends. :(

He was like: Noooooo. I'm serious. If I had never even met you before, this would still move me just the same. It's really good. You can either believe me or not. but for real, this is really good! I feel really inferior to you right now. Because here I am saying I play music and stuff and I have nothing to offer really. Nothing to credit to my name. And you, you're actually a musician. With this beautiful music to prove it. You're way better than me in every way haha. I don't even wanna show you any music I've been doing because it's definitely not as good as this. You're really good at your craft and I've always been honored to have conversations with you. You live breathe and eat music. Eat music?? Hahaha I don't know how that would work hahaha xD but seriously, you're amazing and thank you for showing me your EP. I think it's wonderful.



AWWWWWW. That made me cry. Unbelievable. What a wonderful compliment. I don't even feel like I deserve it. CRYING RIGHT NOW! Fine, I will release this shit. Hahaha.

Releeease om två dagar!

Helt galet. Nu har jag betalat och gjort allt klart. EP:n släpps den 3:e mars och jag är liiiite nervös! Klart man blir nervös! Men jag ser verkligen fram emot det och jag känner mig stolt! Har jobbat som en tok på låtarna. Hoppas någon i den här världen gillar låtarna i alla fall! Har också fixat alla sidor för BP. Reverbnation, Bandcamp, osv.