New Year's Eve Party

I walked to Krylbo all by myself to get to the New Year's Eve party. It was quite nice to walk in the woods, though a bit scary thinking I am a girl completely alone and some  random man walks by with a systembolagetskasse in his hand. :P I had a great time with friends celebrating the new year. All of a sudden there were so many people in Ida's apartment. I had red wine, cider and champagne. I met Linn, an old friend of mine, in the party. Both of us we're so surprised to see each other in the same party. It was so great to see her again.
I slept over and woke up at 1 PM, I must have been really tired. I walked back home as well.
I have a little headache so I had to take a 1-hour nap. It's almost gone now. Still searching for a place to live in Stockholm.

Downton Abbey Christmas Special

OMG OMG OMG Season 4 Episode 9 is up!
I'm so ready! Tea, cookies, chocolates, candle lights - PERFECT!
I'll be back soon.

Happy Christmas!

And so this is Xmas
I hope you have fun
The near and the dear one
The old and the young

More photos coming up later.

And did I tell you that I am moving to Stockholm in January?! 

I am so psyched! :-D

By the way, is it weird that I sometimes feel like I want all my books in my bed and sleep with them? I don't know why but I do it sometimes! I just love the fact that they are many and they're all beautiful and thick! I love looking at them and touching the pages, haha! :-o :-D

Feeling better

Feeling better but not 100% and I know it because I know when I am feeling great.

So uhm . . . have I told you, my dear diary, that I have got accepted to Stockholm University? 8 of us got in and that made me feel really proud of myself. I'm quite blown away and I am feeling so much relief right now.

So there's one thought in my head that I have to write down right now. Thing is, I am not all alone in this because I have told a music friend about it too and he felt the same way. I have always thought, automatically, that whenever I listen to classical music, it makes me in some way more intelligent. That my brain, in some way, learns even if I do not know it, even if I don't want to. I am not thinking like "today I have to learn something from listening to classical music." It's not like that. It's more like subconscious.

"Känner igen det lite! Jag känner att jag hela tiden lär mig undermedvetet om melodier och skalor och sånt som är  relativt komplext i den klassiska musiken. De gamla klassiska mästarna  har ju lyckats göra något bra, varför återuppfinna hjulet när man kan ta vad de gjort och förändra det." Oh yes my friend, I could not agree more.

The Hobbit: Desolation of Smaug

Hey, dear online diary. 

I'm sorry I haven't been here so much. 

Monday - around 2 o' clock in the afternoon, I was waiting for the bus home when I suddenly felt so dizzy to the point that I cried because I felt really bad. My vision became blurry until it became black. I apparently fainted and goodness was it scary! I had never fainted in my entire life so that was something new. Didn't see that coming. The bus driver called the ambulance and they drove me to the hospital. 

Today, I was really excited to see The Hobbit in the cinema until I started feeling weird again. I started sweating yet really cold. I was afraid I would faint again so I tried my best to calm down and told myself not to faint. It sucked because I badly wanted to see the film and enjoy it but unfortunately my body did not allow that and instead made me feel bad. I could barely concentrate on the film. I asked my friend's sister if she had some water and thank God she had. I had some water and it made me feel better for a while but the bad feeling came back. I was almost teary-eyed because I did not want this. I want to feel good but I don't know what's wrong with me. I am praying and hoping that this is just my being inactive the past few weeks/months. I want to start exercising again, go out for walks. I do not want think anything negative at all. I have always been healthy so I can't be sick of anything serious. Right? Right. God will take care of me. 

Anyway as far as I can remember the film was great today and the voice of Smaug gave me the chills. The ending song was great, good job Ed Sheeran. The actors did well and I loved the she-elf ! She seemed to like Kili ~ ! Aaaahhhh they would be so cute together! 

Now I have to rest. 

Too low blood pressure

It was the first time I ever fainted in my life. First time I ever had to be in the hospital myself. I couldn't even imagine that I was actually in the hospital. That I was actually the patient. I thought I was having a dream, after being unconscious for 2-3 minutes at the bus stop. I was with my mother, thank God. What if I was all alone? I didn't know I was going to faint because I never fainted before. Now that I know, I know what to do next time. This coming Saturday we're going to watch the second The Hobbit! I and my friends are so psyched to see this wonderful film, and of course wonderful film score. It's going to be my first cinema experience, too, by the way. Haha. I have so many things that I haven't done yet, that most of the people my age have already done. I'm in bed right now. Resting. I still feel weak from yesterday's incident. I hope it will never happen again. Drink looooads of water and be active. I will probably watch LOTR part 3 today. Oh, btw, Nelson Mandela died. RIP. I still have no internet connection by the way. It must be the snowstorm. I have to fix Christmas presents soon. 

A music ad.

Note: Some things are edited out for privacy reasons.

"Hello! 

Music has always meant so much to me since the day I was born. It has become a part of me already. Now after graduating school (music) I have felt lost the whole time, thinking of what I really want to do with my life. The only thing I could ever think of doing is music. I feel like it's the only thing I really am capable of. The only thing that I really know and really can do. I've tried other things but I never really felt the joy, the warmth. But with music I get to feel that. I feel complete and it's my biggest pasion. I could never live without music and I have to do something about it, I realised. Many people have said to me that I got this thing going, and that I should never, ever stop. They really meant it, and I could feel it and see it in their eyes. I have "it," whatever it is. I believe these people and I want to believe in myself. I just don't know where to start, so I thought of writing something here. I thought this would be my "start." We have to start somewhere, and here I am. 

Anyways, thank you for taking your time. 
Message me if there's anything you'd like to say."

One beautiful reply from a random person:

"Hi there,  Just had to respond to your very touching heartfelt message. I know exactly how you feel as I've been there and I'm still there in a sense.  I'm a singer/songwriter/guitarist who has struggled to make it in music biz and I've gone down roads I probably shouldn't have done.  But the show must go on and if music's in your bones it's what you have to try and make a success of without.  I'm happy to give you some advice and ideas which can help you.  I'm not pretending I can wave a magic wand and make all your dreams come true but I think I could give you some good guidance which might save you a lot of time and heartache!  Your voice is great by the way and you're obviously a very sweet girl so I would love to help you.  All the best - don't give up!" This made me truly happy today and this simply means that I am not all alone in this. I feel very touched. I've received more replies but this one was very touching, indeed.  I've been feeling down since yesterday, until now to be honest. I just feel like I belong somewhere else, and I need to follow my heart. I need to do something, I really need to do. I have talked to one of my closest cousins who's currently in the US. I never thought we would have this chat about moving together somewhere else. We're both very open to anything right now, and we really want to find where we really belong. She feels like she wants to be in Korea, but it does not mean she doesn't want to try the UK. I really hope we'll work this out.  I was supposed to do things last night, but instead, I went to bed. I just felt weak, I felt sad, I felt helpless. I was chatting with a friend about it, but I just couldn't help but cry 'til I fell asleep. I felt like I lost all my energy because of this sadness. I don't want to use the word depressed, but I think I am. I am depressed. I woke up around 9 and still felt the same. I almost cried again. Mama and I went to church and I had the chance to play the piano again. I played non-stop, it felt good. My body felt very warm and it felt heavy. I felt like all the weight were in my fingers. My fingers just continued playing and I felt like I was in my own little bubble. I was almost in the point of bursting into tears.  Lord, help me. Lead me. Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Matthew 6:34 Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

Am I Weird

I was browsing videos and suddenly found videos about prodigies. I was teary-eyed! These little people with beautiful minds. It's just so moving. I wish more young gifted people would get help to make this world a better place.


So the time is 00:04, and I am studying French. I finally have time to study this wonderful language again. It would be really great to master this beautiful language.

I have noticed one thing about myself though. You know what I said about not many people understanding me? It's true, indeed. And I also feel that I cannot talk to people my age so much because ... I don't know why but it feels like I think differently. I enjoy talking to older people more, it feels like I can communicate better that way. It's also a very good thing when I learn things from them, things I never know about.

Sometimes, I feel like crying. Like, right now. I feel like I am not good at anything except from expressing myself. It feels like the only thing I am really good at is expressing how I feel, whether it is through music, art or whatever it is. I feel like the only thing I could ever do is this and if I do something else, I would not succeed. Have you ever felt this way? :-/


This is a good article by the way.

Listening to Chopin at the moment. He's one of my favorite composers ever.

People. Sick. People. Sick People.

I feel a little bit indisposed today. Menstrual cramps, I hate it.
I haven't done so much today. Been watching Work of Art and crying like a baby. Some of their works just touched me. It touched my heart. I hope they'll continue what they're doing. Art is a very wonderful thing. We need to promote art, we need it in our lives. I've also read an article about people having intercourse with animals and I couldn't help but cry, I had to go to the bathroom and cry there. I didn't want people to see me cry. It's just so cruel. These powerless creatures. I'm really, really sad.

Just finished painting something random a while ago though. I've been watching too much Work of Art, got inspired to do something. A little pop artsy, and it isn't a good painting since I almost never paint. I am not good at drawing either, I'm not good at art at all, but I really am very interested in anything art. I love art galleries, I love watching people do art, I love watching art shows, and so on. I probably can show you this pop art that I made someday :)

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The time is now 2:55. Just finished watching Work of Art, Season 2 and the latest TVD episode. So now, as usual, I have noticed that this is what keeps me awake at night the most. My creativity. All of these ideas and thoughts I have about music, art and everything just pops up when it's bed time. I'm lying awake in bed, staring at the walls, windows, ceiling and all I can think of is "do something creative! Do it! Or else I won't let you sleep!" Something like that. So yeah, diary, what do you think I do late at night? Oh well, sometimes I am forced to get out of bed and do myself a makeover and take photographs of myself and make these photographs cool. Yes, this is true. All for the love of photography. And right now I must say that I have so many ideas of the themes I would like to have on my future photoshoots. I want some action in my photos, some eerieness to it, something that would make the viewer feel something. Sorrow, fear, happiness or something like that. I want to take powerful photos. This must happen. Soon I hope. I have been praised of my photos and I am really thankful and glad for that. I am not trained at all, I am self-taught. I believe that if you really have what it takes, the magic just happens. There are many people who appreciate and adore my work and this inspires me to do more and more and more. This means I've got something going on. I just have to believe in myself. And I do this because I want to. I love doing this and I'm not doing this for anyone else. I just really appreciate that people appreciate what I am doing. So anyway, I also draw or paint late at night. Or write in my little notebook. Write lyrics, poems or something. Write a story and never finish it, haha. I was also thinking how great and fun it would be to have your own "ateljé" ! I just thought of it eversince I have started watching Work of Art. I just realised how wonderful it would be to have a big white room where you can work and draw and paint and do all your art and then design them and install them! How rad! Now this room is officially added to the future rooms I have in mind in my future house. :-) 

Drawing Room

Dining Room

Kitchen

Master's Bedroom

Toilet/Shower Room

Art Studio

Music Studio

Gym

Library Card

Jahaaadu. Hej! Here I am! I'm superman!

So today I picked up my brother and it was quite cold, I must say. I met Johannes in the library and we took a look at the photography that was there. I bought a cute shirt for a friend and I hope she receives it before Christmas! I also met my friend Dennis. I let him borrow my Hendrix book and I hope he takes care of it very well. I really think he should read it! We strolled around the mall and I took him to the secondhand boutique that he never knew of, he said.

 Finally, after 5 years owning a library card, I finally used it! Haha! Here's  a book about the rock band KISS which I've decided to borrow. And oh, tea, of course. I'm sure you've met my tea before.

 

BY THE WAY! I can't get enough of Work of Art: The Next Great Artist! I can't even help my tears when they've created something beautiful and just all the feelings I get when everything is wonderful! I like Ryan Shultz, he's quite funny and has this funny laugh. He has this cute hairdo and I love the way he dresses. It's so fun and interesting how artists do their art. I love this show! Why haven't I seen it before!?

Random thoughts going on in my head right now

Right now I feel like I need a cup of tea. It's soothing, it's relaxing to drink something hot in this cold weather, you know what I'm sayin'? Haha.

Add a little milk to it. Mmmm! Though for me it depends on what kind of tea I am drinking. If it's something minty, for instance, then I prefer it without milk.

 

Now I've had this conversation  with a friend and he thought I was funny. I haven't really thought about what I was saying, I just had to let it out. Know what I'm sayin'? Haha!

Me: I badly want a bicycle. I have an old rose pink paint in case I need to paint the bike.

I want a bicycle that I will love forever. 

He was like: You have very cute plans!

I was like: I want to bike. I am concerned with the environment. :-)

He was like: Wants a bike, wants to paint it, and love it like a baby. Has planned it. Such a cute plan!

I was like: It's true! I have the paint in my drawer. I have bought it months ago but haven't used it yet. I want to use it for the right one and I believe it will be the bike.

He was like: Hahaha! Waiting for the right one. I'm laughing here. Stop being so cute! "A girl and her bike - a love story."

- Haha, I don't know what's going on but I just badly want a bicycle right now. I want a big one where I can put many things. A basket is a must, and the colour has to be a colour that I fancy. 

I thought this photo was very nice. I can't find any information about the photographer. :-(

Something like this have I in mind.

My LSS (Last Song Syndrome) right now is an old song by the band Two Door Cinema Club called What You Know. Very catchy, can't help my legs from dancing!

So I'm watching old episodes of Downton Abbey right now. As I told you, my dear diary, I miss Downton! I miss it, I miss it, I miss it! I want a new episode now! :(

And why do I have to be crushing on Thomas Barrow?! One of the most evil ones! He's so cute, look at that!

 

I honestly cried when I saw him crying in some of the episodes. My heart couldn't take it. I couldn't bear to see him cry. It just feels so weird to see him cry because he hardly ever cries! He's a villain, remember?! Not all the time but most of the time. I cried when he was crying all alone in his room, after the James incident. :( I could not help my tears either when he cried when Lady Sybil died. Oh, poor Thomas! *BIG HUG* Just kidding! Ok, I'm not kidding. I really want to give you a hug. Accept it.

The catastrophe in the Philippines is very horrible right now. Let us help them! I was in tears when I was watching the news with my mother. Here is a song dedicated to all of them, and to those who died - may you all rest in peace.

                                               

Lookie

01:16

Hello. I miss Downton Abbey right now (again). I think I will watch the old seasons now, to cheer myself up a little bit, at least. :(   I've been drawing today, and it was not a beautiful drawing, really. I still managed to finish it though. What have I done today? Nothing much, really. Woke up 11:30-ish, had breakfast, read books, drew things on my drawing book, watched YouTube videos, watched different films and did not finish them, and now I am planning to either watch an old Downton Abbey episode or read a book and look up the words I've never heard of. By the way, I have this thing called Lookbook. I'm new to this website so I'm trying to fix good quality photos to post! Everyone is so fashionable in this site, so if you're someone who's into fashion and has fashion as one of your biggest passions, or if you just like to check out different clothing styles and probably get some inspiration? Then this website is for you! Haha, I sound like a commercial on tv or radio or something. :-(  I will need to write down my Lookbook here in case I forget that I have Lookbook. Haha!

Here are some of the looks I've posted that I actually wear in my everyday life.

Good ol' friend

Hello, hello, and hello.

My day has been terrific. I was with a good ol' friend named Jessica. It's been ages! I missed her. We walked around and took some photos then we decided to eat lunch @ King's Arms. She surprised me by treating me for lunch. How kind of her! I had grilled potatoes and schnitzel with some veggies. The potatoes were fantastic! Schnitzel was okay. Here's me and Jessica:

 

Anyway,  before I left home this morning, my mother told me some crazy things going on that her brother told her about. It was gut-wrenching and I just felt like punching the wall. People have gone insane and darkness is dominating. It is dominating people's hearts and minds. These people have gone blind and it seems that their senses are all gone. They are like puppets moving around. The only thing they react to is when they hear the word "money" and all they do is make others' lives miserable. And the one last place you could ever imagine full of darkness is the place they call "church." The church of God, but not really. It's the church of darkness, where darkness prevails. It makes me  so angry, and I condole with my uncle. He's a good man, I think I know it. My mother speaks very kindly of him. I trust my mother. I do not have much money as I am only a student, but giving him my last money was the only thing I could do. He could not do anything at all, he has got nothing. No one could help, no one could give. I can imagine how powerless that could make one feel. All he does is sit in his room all day, desolating himself. God bless him and everyone in that house. If I were my granny, I would think this way: church is just a building. It's not the most important thing. The MOST important thing is your faith. Your relationship with your God. What's the point of going to a "church" full of wickedness? They are all using her and this must stop. My mother told me that the only time my uncle feels joy is when he hears music. When he listens to music. I know he can play the guitar, but he has none. Imagine yourself feeling helpless and there's nothing you could do but  sit in a depressing room all day -- how wonderful would it have been with some music to make your soul feel alive? How wonderful would it have been to sit there with, at least, a guitar as your one and only outlet? I really believe he would have been the happiest. Music is something that lifts up our soul and he needs this, I know. How I wish I could give him a guitar right now, but it's not that easy. World has gone deranged, that I am quite sure of.

Art!

I just had to put this up because it touched me. It gave me goosebumps.

How fantastic is this? I couldn't help but drop a tear. Amazing, really. Thank you. Not only you, but everyone out there doing the same thing. A BIG LOVE to all the artists, musicians, writers, designers, and all of you guys, you know who you are. Thank you for sharing your gifts with the world. I'm not the best when it comes to art. I draw sometimes. I can and I honestly think I was better when I was little. I've just got involved with music more but sure I still appreciate art, very much! Everything about art speaks to me. I love art. I love music. I love theatre, dance and all of these things. Things that will let you express yourself and be you in your own little world.

23:57

The time is 23:57. Nope, I haven't been awake the whole time. I just woke up, actually. It was supposed to be a 30-minute nap which turned into a two-(or probably three)hour sleep.

I think I am going to work on my literature stuff. The Talented Mr. Ripley is interesting. I have read it and now I think I'm going to watch the film. I was lying awake for a moment before I decided to move my arse and sit here. I was thinking of Downton Abbey. I was wondering if they had released a new episode and I need to check it out later. This would be a perfect and lovely treat for me since I'll be working hard tonight. I'll be back later for new updates. So long, sweetest online diary!


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02:26
Hello. Back. I honestly am scared of Tom Ripley right now. Seriously, he's out of his mind! How could one do such a thing? He gives me the creeps. I wonder if there's someone out there similar to this man. That would be creepy, reeeeally creepy. I hope I won't bump into a person like Tom.  Anyway, been listening to some jazz music. Oh yes, the roaring 20s! I checked Downton Abbey by the way. A new episode is up!!! Can't wait. I will be watching it later in the morning when I wake up. 

"Aesthete"

I did not come to the movie night my friends were having tonight. I just felt like I wanted to stay at home and study and feel cozy in my bed and just . . . just . . . just read books. Right now I am checking out some music that I want to have in my music player. This is important, okay? I need music whenever I go out. As soon as I step out of the door, I need to be ready. Like a girl scout, you know? I need to have good earphones, and good sound quality it must be. The sound is very important too, okay? As someone who plays music, sound quality is very important. I hope you comprehend, my dear online-ish diary.

Minutes ago, I watched a video of people dancing very beautifully. Gracefully, altogether. I almost cried, the tears were almost there. Why am I always like this? I always cry to things that are beautiful, specifically creative, artistic, aesthetic things, you know? I just can't help it. I am always like this. Whatever it is I see - someone acting, someone dancing, someone playing music, someone singing, someone drawing/painting, someone filming something beautiful, someone . . . just someone doing something beautiful that touches my heart and soul! I guess that is why they call me an aesthete. Can I help it? I can't. This is me.

Now I shall proceed looking up good music. I miss Downton Abbey. I hope a new episode comes out soon. I am planning to buy some book related to Downton Abbey, still deciding which book. Today I've ordered 3 new books. 2 Jane Austen's and 1 entitled Little Women. Looking forward to receiving these books. I honestly feel that classic books are more fun to read. I enjoy them more, that's what counts. Also, I feel like I learn more from them than 'contemporary' books. I am sure I'm not alone in this. There must be people out there feeling and thinking the same way.

Here is how I looked like last time. I love my coat. My hat has always been a part of me, nothing new.

Read, read and read

I have been reading the book The Fault In Our Stars and I am on page 132 now. It went quite fast! I enjoy it so far. First of all, I like the simplicity of the book cover. Simple and cute letterings. The book is making me laugh, giggle and sad so far. I love how one of the main characters, Hazel, loves reading books. I can relate to her! Only that I am not suffering from any disease. I can't wait to finish the book. I have read many good reviews about this book and I hope it meets my expectations. :-) 

Happy Halloween, my comrades!

I am quite satisfied with the outcome of our halloween look. I honestly have not celebrated halloween before so this is my very first time to do all these things. We did not feel like going out and buy costume or anything so we took everything we had at home. At first, I was sceptical about using the watercolour for face paint but WHATEVER I still did it anyway, haha. I also made the mask I'm wearing in the picture. Many people said the makeup looked great. I'm glad :-) I'll be even better next time.

I was hungry. So hungry I had to fry eggs and salami with bread. Hehe.

Wednesday, hello!

Today arrived my books. I ordered them from the internet. Jane Austen's Northanger Abbey and John Green's The Fault in our Stars. The Oscar Wilde book was from my mother. I also sent letters and parcels to some friends. I love sending letters and even more when receiving them. I hung out in the local library a bit. I and a friend visited the art gallery. Fun! :-D  I was on my way home when I bumped into my guitar maestro! :-D  We decided to go "fika." Talked about history, music and a little politics. Politics is not really my cup of tea. He said I could borrow one of his electric guitars if I wanted to. I think I will start reading one of the books now. :-D

20:56 Sunday

Two days ago (Friday), I was at the autumn market downtown with a friend. I did not even know that there was something like that that day. I was surprised to see many people and market stalls everywhere! I bought roasted almonds. YUM!

Today is Sunday. I was glad to see Andreas, a friend of ours. He sang beautifully today. I liked the melody of the songs he sang. I have noticed his improvement. He has a better voice control and voice clarity. It makes me glad. :-) We had fika, then I played the piano forte. I love that piano, I wish I could take it home with me.

I am drinking tea at the moment. As usual. Can't wait for the next Downton Abbey episode. I'm DYING.

   

Reading books

Hello!
It's quarter past one in the morning and I am still awake.
I have been reading things about the author Jane Austen, one of my favorite authors.
I have just realised that I love her books. All of them! I only tend to cry when it's something that has to do with music or dance. Never have I cried thinking of art of written work! I have just realised it just moments ago. I was a little teary-eyed. Now I am starting to realise the beauty of it. I appreciate and recognise the writing talent of people. I have many books in my shelf but I was not really into this whole book thing until now. I mean, I like books, I really do. But this time, it feels like it is something more than that. You know the feeling when you really like something and you are really eager to know more about it? Probably become quite obsessed with it? I am starting to realise all these things and I am afraid my room will be filled with books in no time. I have just ordered two books and I can't wait to read them!

Winter Look

I don't usually do this but now I am going to! Excuse my Paint skills, ha ha. I took all the photos from Google. Here's how I will probably look like this winter. Not the exact clothes but almost.

I love the neutral colours!
I am listening to a lot of Handel at the moment. And a little J.S. Bach.
Can't help but wave my hands again, feeling like a conductor. Hihi.

Tears. Tears. Can't help the tears.

"We are free to follow our own passions, explore our own gifts, wherever they may lead us. Tonight's honorees did not just take up their crafts to make a living. They did it because they could not imagine living any other way and that passion took each of them from humble beginnings to the pinnacle of their profession." - B. Obama

I really agree when he said this in his little speech (not in this video I posted).

I loved what he said because it really spoke to me. I felt it, and I could relate to it.
Tears started falling when I watched this video I posted now. Led Zeppelin is such a great, and I mean GREAT, band. I got even more emotional when Jimmy Page and Robert Plant were on tears too. I couldn't help my tears not just because of the beautiful music but because I really feel like this is what I am destined to do. I just felt it now for real. I feel like... I cannot imagine doing anything else. I admit, I am not really intelligent, I am not the smartest, but when it comes to music - I really am passionate. This is the only thing I know I can. I am not good at anything else. :-(   I'm so crying right now because this comes from the bottom of my heart, truly. :(  I really, really NEED to play music. I need music in my life. I need to do what I love to do. Do what you love, love what you do.

Psychology, indeed.

In about two minutes, it's 00:00, October 19th!

Anyway, I am still studying. Studying PSYCHOLOGY. Yes, you heard it right. I am quite enjoying it. I finally got my book today. I have done the first test and yes I only had 2 mistakes! I am very satisfied with the result. I have just got the book today but I have also studied some via internet when the book was not here. If there's a will, there's a way!

I'm still studying and I find everything really, really interesting. I am really glad I started studying psychology. I am also listening to classical music at the same time. I can't help but wave my hands or pretend like I'm the conductor when I hear a really good piece, usually a piece I know. Haha. So a break is a must when I am doing this. I just did it like 3 minutes ago. Haha.

The snow has come!

Welcome back, swedish snow! I have missed you!

I just finished my tea and will be watching the continuation of the film Sense and Sensibility.

I have been studying so hard the past few days and now my brain needs a little break.

Victorian dreams

I have always been interested in the victorian period and now I'd like to post photos of the two most important rooms for me.

First is the drawing room. Who wouldn't love to hang out in the drawing room? As one who is very passionate about music, I would most definitely spend most of my time in this room. I'd open the curtains in the morning and let the sunshine in while I play the piano - all day long (thinking of Morgenstimmung by Edvard Grieg, haha).  I'd love to invite my friends and spend a good time in this room. Some tea would be highly appreciated. TEAHOLIC.

I'd be like:

This would be the second room. The dining room! I love eating, I really do. Haha! I am a food lover and I'd surely be spending a lot of time in this room as well. I'd be very delighted to be in this dining room because not only would I enjoy the food, I'd also enjoy everything I see in this room. It would absolutely feel fantastic.

I feel warm and happy inside, seeing these rooms. I did not choose the bedroom since I would probably sleep in one of these rooms, haha! I just thought I'd like to write about this stuff because I'd like to see if my taste changes later (though I think it won't). I might get a victorian house someday, who knows?

Edna, leave Mr. Tom Branson alone, please. Thank you.

Det stämmer faktiskt ganska mycket!

http://www.outofservice.com/music-personality-test/results/?complex=94&edgy=54&fun=58&energetic=1

Sorry for my late update, diary! Is quite busy. Need to study hard! Studying looooads of Psychology. Quite fun, I must say. New episode of Downton Abbey has come today! I am soooo happy. I feel sorry for Tom, truly. I hope Edna stops being such a pain in the arse and leave Tom alone. I hate her, she's trying too hard to get him even if it is so obvious that Tom does NOT like her. She should go. Really. MR. CARSON! I need your help. Fire her, now!

Fina Söndag

God is good. God is great.

I was supposed to wake up 7:00 but did not hear the alarm clock so I woke up 7:34 instead, haha!

I put on my clothes real quick, ate my breakfast real quick and (power)walked to Krylbo.

I was 15 minutes late. They had already started vocal warm-ups when I arrived around 9. We had 4 musicians on piano, bass, guitar and drums. I was quite satisfied with our performance and I enjoyed it. Can't wait to rehearse again next week. Haha. Oh, I walked in the woods on my way to Krylbo and it was really beautiful. All the wonderful colours of autumn! 

Autumn is a magical season, indeed.

We had fika right after the performance, had a chat with the folks, then headed for the kitties at Ida's. They were so cute! All three were black. Then I headed back home, made some tea for Mom, played guitar and sang random songs.

Now I'm having tea again. Yes, teaholic, I know.

Done cleaning. My bed is all clean and my guitar is in my bed. It sleeps beside me. It's my baby.

"Vilken underbar . . . "

Okej, om 5 minuter är det 3:e Oktober!

Idag är det alltså 2:a Oktober. Äntligen är jag med i kören. Vi repar i stan. Jag frågade om Johannes och Ida ville vara med och ja det ville dom! Vad kul. Vi trodde inte att det skulle vara så där kul, faktiskt. Det var kul, och jag kunde de flesta av låtarna! Vi kör lite gospel. Roligt. Vi tog en liten paus och då passade jag på att dricka vatten. Efter repet gick vi till plushuset där de hade en sån grej där det var massa tjejer. Killar fick vara med, men de fick inte ta korv med bröd. HAHAHAHA. Det var så kul tyckte jag. Jag fick ta. All right, och Johannes som var så hungrig ville så gärna ha också. När han skulle fråga om han fick ta så sa gubben att han inte fick ta för han är kille. Men vi fick ta åt honom, som tur var. Haha, stackars. Anyways, vi gick runt lite och träffade Emma C. Emelie också. Vad kul att se dom! Vi var på röda korset idag och Ida köpte en fin svart kavaj och några skjortor.
På söndag kör vi med kören kvart i 9 i Krylbo kyrkan. Ska bli kul, längtar!

Just ja . . . jag körde massa "vilken underbar" ikväll. Vet inte, jag kände det på mig bara. Så jag sa massa saker när vi gick runt affärer. Typ ... "vilken underbar sko! vilken underbar affär! vilken underbar korv!" You name it. Allt var typ underbart, haha. Så klart jag skojade, lol!


All right. Nu måste jag typ titta på Downton Abbey och göra något annat. Kanske plugga Franska. Jo, det måste jag verkligen göra.

Spontaneous Sunday

I and a friend went to church today. We enjoyed our spontaneous fika, without having to spend money. Well, someone paid for us, that was very kind of this person. We played piano, it has been recently tuned. You know that great feeling when a piano (it was a grand piano by the way) is finally tuned after a long wait. Anyway, we went home and I changed shoes then we took a spontaneous walk. We did not know where we were, we just walked and walked and found ourselves surrounded by the very beautiful nature. It was green, green everywhere. I suddenly got the feeling of saying "You shall not pass!" very loud, so I did it. We burst into laughter. I received a text message from my mother that food is soon ready. Food was great, I enjoyed it. A moment later, we had afternoon tea. Mmmm... love tea. Ooops, here comes the teaholic!

We decided to go out for a walk once again. We found a forest we did not know exist. We walked into the woods and found ourselves in the middle of nowhere. We just realized we're lost. All right, what are we gonna do now?! I was trying not to feel worried. It was slowly getting darker. Thank goodness I had my irish flute with me, so I thought I'd play good melodies to calm myself down. Ha ha! "Go home, Sam. All right, just kidding come on now. Hehehe." It's our version of Frodo's line when he abandoned Sam. Oh, poor Sam. At last, we found our way home! RELIEVED? You bet I am!

 

Here I am, playing my irish flute (penny whistle). As I said, I was a little worried when we were lost but the forest was so green and beautiful + the sound of the flute was beautiful that it took my worries away.

All right, now I'll have myself some tea. Good night!

Classical Music Flash Mobs

Oh, how I love flash mobs! Good flash mobs, of course. I would like to post two of my all-time favorite flash mobs. I have seen them many times and I just can't get enough of them! They give me goose bumps everytime. Cannot help the tears either. There are so many things music can do to us! It can evoke emotions and memories. This one is very powerful, I think. Breathtaking, beautiful, amazing!

I very much agree with this comment: "I don't care whether it's a fake flashmob or not. If I was on this train I'd have been smiling from ear to ear for the rest of the day. If you got on this train, heard this and got off unhappy, please dedicate your body to medical science immediately as you are clearly dead and have been for some time"  Very well said, ha ha!

    

This one is amazing too. I am sure most of the people are familiar with this one (I hope). I just love how powerful this is! When all of them started singing, wow. I just . . . there are no words to describe the feeling I get when I listen to this. Thank you for the music, Herr Beethoven! 

"Our results suggest that chills depend very much on our ability to interpret the music," said Oliver Grewe, a biologist and musicologist at the institute. "Music is a recreative activity. Even if it is relaxing to listen to, the listener has to recreate its meaning, the feelings it expresses. It is the listener who gives life to the emotions in music."

 NICE ONE!

I'll raise my glass to you

Citerar en man som skrev detta till mig ikväll.

"Jag uppskattar verkligen din bredd. Ofta har breda människor betecknats som 'untrue', men jag har faktiskt motsatt uppfattning. Det är ju den öppna människan som har ett äkta intresse i musik eller konst eller vad det nu är, medan den ”stängda” människan snöar in på koncepten. Eh... och då resonerar jag att det finns risk för att koncept-människans intresse är ytligt (eftersom det handlar mer om yta/trend än om genuint intresse) och därmed kan man också beteckna den som 'untrue.'
Genremässigt är jag väldigt bred beträffande musiken. Har lyssnat aktivt på musik sedan jag var barn, började samla skivor när jag var 9 år. Man kan väl säga att den som skapar något som berör mig, också har vunnit mitt intresse. Detta oavsett genre. Musiken måste ha SJÄL. Jag kan väl i och för sig lyssna på tekniskt fulländad musik också, även om jag inte uppfattar att den har själ, men bara i något slags studiesyfte då."


Åh... nu kom jag å tänka på en grej. När jag var på en spelning i Stockholm, på Fasching. Gu vad jag diggade musiken så mycket! Eller jag gör ju så varje gång jag är på en bra spelning. Jag kan inte låta bli att bli en aning besatt?! Haha! Jag kunde inte låta bli att dansa eller headbanga ! Och tårarna började falla, rinna ner på kinden . . . man blir ju så emotional när man ser och hör andra spelar musik helhjärtat. Satsar helhjärtat på musiken liksom. Då blir man också motiverad och inspirerad. Gaaah, går inte ens att förklara så bra med ord. Jag känner bara att det är en sådan underbar känsla, som verkligen inte går att jämföra med någonting.

TOO FAT. It says that you're too fat, Mrs. Patmore.

Idag har jag tagit det lugnt. I've been watching a lot of Downton Abbey today. One of my favorite tv shows, though I do not use the tv to watch it, haha! Thomas is so evil that I almost feel like I ...like I... like I like him? Haha. He's really doing good in his role. Anyway, I must say that one of my favorite characters is Sybil. She's a strong, independent woman. She does not care what everyone thinks. She does what she wants and nothing can ever stop her. I can relate to her. Go, Sybil! You have my support! :-D  While watching Downton Abbey, a sudden stomach pain attacked me. I had to go to the loo and stay there forever. FOREVER. Okey, perhaps not forever but it felt like it. It was painful, I despised it and I do not want to be in that situation again. Ha ha! I think I need a cup of tea again, soon. I am, as I said before, a teaholic.

More about me? Hmmm, I'll try! Here it goes.

▼Likes art.
▼Enjoys art galleries, live music, operas, musicals.
▼Classical music and medieval music are beautiful.
▼A nature lover.
▼Prefers a cup of tea over a cup of coffee.
▼Enjoys reading a good book, specially classic novels (cook books are undoubtedly included).
▼Fascinated by musical instruments and would not hesitate to play them.
▼Thinks everything victorian is ravishing and pleasant to the eyes.
▼Honestly thinks that rock n’ roll is one of the greatest creations in life.
▼Likes to draw, loves to play music (with or without audience).
▼Enjoys a glass of wine, crackers and cheese.
▼Loves to cook and bake; loves to eat.
▼Likes hats. Has several hats.
▼Easily becomes all emotional when touched by music. (Oh, tears!)
▼Finds learning languages to be extremely fascinating and beautiful at the same time.


I am planning to buy more books to read. More Jane Austen, W.Shakespeare, Charles Dickens, Edgar Allan Poe, Charlotte Brontë books, perhaps? I like them.

Wednesday

I've been with a friend today. We went to find plates suited for our journey. We couldn't find them in town, so we decided to go to 33:an and buy the plates that we were thinking of buying last time. We did not buy them since we were hoping to find better plates which we obviously did not. Before that, we went to my place to fika. Apple pie and tea. Perfect for this kind of weather - cold, dark, windy. Autumn has come, indeed. Now we're just waiting for the ring. One ring to screw us all. It won't be long now, I hope. I was feeling 1900-ish today, so I wore one of my hats, long dress, coat and leggings. I could see some of the people staring, as if I had done something wrong. The others just seemed glad to see me in this clothing. At least I hope the older ones appreciate it, and not think badly about all the young people in this generation. There's still hope, you know. ;-) You know what? I could not care less, really. I want to dress the way I want to. I do not care if our world today is very modern. No one can tell me to dress in a certain way. No one can tell me to dress like them. I do not want to be in clothes we have today if I am not happy in them. I want to dress in clothes that make me happy.

This house is beautiful. The leaves were so red and lovely. 

Damn onions

Lord of the Rings borde vara olagligt. Jag kan inte låta bli att fälla en tår varje gång. Gosh. Tänk om alla som slutar på jobbet slutar så här. More love to people! 

P.S. Greatest movie score ever written! Musiken i Lord of the Rings är en av de bästa jag hört i alla filmer jag sett i mitt liv.

Hon är 3:55

Gosh, tänkte sova tidigt men titta vad klockan är nu! Jag hittade några roliga youtube-videos och jag kan verkligen inte sluta garva. Förlåt. Min mage gör ganska ont just nu för jag skrattar så mycket. Det var ett tag sedan jag skrattade så här mycket. Jag visste inget om Lil Wayne innan. Jag har aldrig hört talas om den här killen, men på grund av de här videosarna så fick jag reda på vem han var.

Hahaha! Jag trodde han skojade först. Men han var seriös!

Den här var också rolig.  Han sjunger roligt och spelar lite roligt. Det han säger när han pratar är också ganska roligt.

Söndagsmys

Idag kom fina Margareta hit och jag fick lite grejer som födelsedagspresent. Jag älskar min nya wristwatch. Och allt jag fick ! Nya te-koppar, bestick, allt behöver jag snart när jag flyttar härifrån. Tusen tack. God mat var det idag också, biff med bacon och god sås till och sallad. 

Hösten är kommen som sagt. Så måste ta vara på all sol man får. Snart är den borta helt. Darkness domination begins. Farewell, beloved sun. You'll forever be missed (for now). 

2:14

Breaking of the fellowship. Kärlek. 2:14, där blundar jag samtidigt som tårarna faller. Underbart. Så himla underbart hur musiken kan röra, inspirera. Så fort jag hör flöjten kommer in, verkligen, så börjar jag gråta. Jag kan inte hjälpa det. Jag vet inte vad det är med Shire-musiken, men det gör iaf så att jag känner mig hemma. Det känns som jag är äntligen i paradiset. Det finns någonting magiskt i den musiken som H. Shore har gjort. Tack, så hemskt mycket, för musiken. 💚🎶🍃

For-Evert and Evert

Idag var en ganska rolig dag, min kära dagbok. Vi var hos Evert på GM och letade lite saker som vi behöver till vandringen, mot Mordor! Haha. Fina medeltida grejer. Väldigt gamla och charmiga saker. Jag älskar grejen där vi ska ha våra poe-tae-toes! What's taters, precious?!

 

Haha. Söta Smeagol! Anyways, vi hittade grejer på 33:an. Hittade inget på GM. Enda vi behöver tänka på nu är tallrikar och vattenflaska som passar till vandringen! After 2 and a half hours of looking around, we finally decided to go to his place and there we go . . . FIKA! Haha. Morotskaka, yes! And of course, a cup of tea. Gött! 

 

Vi jammade lite också. Jag tog med mig min flöjt. Han spelade lite munspel och vi spelade lite piano. Lyssnade på lite musik, sen drog vi till "regnskogen" och filmade lite grejer som jag behöver till en grej som jag håller på med. Sen så tog jag bussen runt 7 tiden. På väg hem pratade jag med en asiatkompis via video call. Visade henne hur mörkt och tomt denna stad var, haha. Next time, my friend, next time. När det är ljust och när det är folk så kan du ringa mig, oki? Jag kom hem och det var god mat. Mamma, bra jobbat. Så här ska det vara! Nu dricker jag te och lyssnar på lite musik från LotR igen. Läser lite grejer om medeltiden. Interesting! Och när jag har massor med pengar måste jag köpa massa böcker. Bra böcker, och även ordböcker i olika språk. I'm a linguaphile, can't help it.

En sån tisdag, utan att behöva göra någonting

...förutom att vakna upp, dricka te, spela musik. Hur underbart som helst.

Jag spelade lite piano och mycket flöjt idag. Så himla kul när man kan låten ganska bra nu.

Jag skulle till köket när jag såg den här utanför fönstret! 

 

Så himla vackert! Snart ska jag dricka te igen. Jag har blivit en teholic! Imorgon blir det kanske lite grönamagasinet för att hitta grejer som vi behöver till skogvandringen senare. Har börjat prata med en kusin som jag inte pratat på länge. Just ja, för några dagar sen så pratade jag med en av mina bästa kusiner. Hon är tydligen i USA nu igen. Hoppas allt går bra för henne. Bless her. 

P.S. Mitt hjärta blöder just nu igen. Lyssnar på Concerning Hobbits. Kan inte hjälpa tårarna. Så himla vackert ju! Det rör verkligen mitt lilla musikhjärta. En som skrev så här: This song makes me so happy, i can't say exactly why, but i know i love it.

Ett mäktigt svar: It is because we have a desire to return to our ancestral way of simplicity. We crave a life of both leisure and hard work, where manual labor is the only profession what fulfills our needs. A life that is filled with prosperity, study, green and fertile plains, good food, and the ever flowing ale and pipe weed. J.R.R. Tolkien no doubt wanted a similar life, far away from the giant that was industry. In this way, Lord of the Rings will always be more than just high fantasy. 

Precis som jag tänkte! Tack för att denna person förverkligade dom med ord. 

 P.S. Klockan är 2:42 och jag ligger här i sängen, bölar som bara den. Lyssnar på In Dreams, m.m. Så vackra melodier. Hjälp.